Sometimes I feel like such a scrooge!

I know I suck! I said NO to Mexico but you guys do not understand, I look like I was about 4 months pregnant at least! I am so much better now but still have bandages on my stomach. I so would not have had a good time but after this blizzard we got over the holidays I think I should have said YES! I was stuck in the house for 2 days straight. I cooked a ton of food for my family and they all had to cancel. Nobody could get out on the roads, all interstates were shut down and the airport. It was awful and we are not used to that here at all. We got 14" of snow which never happens. I walked outside and it was just about to my knees in some places, super high drifts from the 50 mph winds.




I have about 2 more weeks and then I can begin my workouts again, I can hardly wait! I feel like such a big blob but I have been hitting the cardio a little heavy. So far my plans are, a April show, a May show and a June show if I can talk hubs into all three with 2 of them being out of state so the expenses are pretty high and since this is just my hobby I have to put my lower lip out a little further so he will go for it.

Here is my island, not sure if you can tell but it is gigantic and I love it. I have room to do everything on it. We put a flat screen tv on the wall in front of it so when I am home alone and cooking at least I can watch tv while I do it. I can also watch my favorite cooking shows while I am in the kitchen. I spend a lot of time in this room so I wanted it to be perfect for me. I was in for a rude awakening when it came to buying the hardware for my drawers and cabinets. I am going to have to spend about $350 more just for the hardware. The drawers are so large that it will take at least a 12" drawer pull and those sucks are not cheap! UGH! I may have to just buy one at a time at that price. So, there is no hardware on it yet so it looks kind of plane but you get the idea.

Getting back to normal

Well it has been 12 days since surgery and it has been a slow process. Everyday is a little bit better with the first couple of days being the worst. At least now it does not hurt to sneeze. My weight is all over the place within 5-6 lbs depending on what day of the week it is. I am still really bloated and I have read a lot about this and it is due to them having to fill your abdominal cavity with gas to do the surgery. It has really messed with me mentally though because I am used to having a very flat tummy and now I look like I am about 4 mths pregnant. I cannot button any of my clothes, it is just too tight in the waist. I started back doing cardio yesterday and made it 35 minutes before starting to hurt a little so I called it quits. Today I made it to 40 min so I am slowly getting back into it but still have two weeks to go until a weight workout and then I am sure I will have to ease back into that.

Dave actually wanted to take a little weekend trip to Mexico over the holidays and I said, hell to the NO! I would never put on a swimsuit in this condition, I mean I still have bandages all over my tummy much less looking pregnant, I nearly fainted when he suggested it. He took the whole month of December off so he has been a great help around the house. He does a good part of the cleaning like vacuuming and stuff that I cannot do right now. He has done so much around the house and I am loving it.

My kitchen is done other than getting hardware for the cabinets and drawers,don't even get me started on that. It is not as easy as it sounds. I wanted to post pics but my battery is dead on my camera and I left my charger at school so either I go buy another charger or just wait until I go back after the first of the year but either way I will post pics soon. I love, love, love the kitchen!

Thanks to all of you for the cards and emails while I was recovering! It really did cheer me up on those long days:)

Recovery

Well, apparently that little thing called a gallbladder can really make you feel like poo. Who knew that little organ could do so much? It has been 3 days since surgery and I am slowly getting around. This was not as easy of a surgery that I thought it would be. I can tell you I sleep like a baby now, 12 hrs last night. I am ready to be 100% and get back into my routine. I am super bloated and can only eat soft things like egg whites. I am ready for some real food. I did not tell a lot of people about this surgery including my dad. Yes, I did not want him to worry so I just didn't tell him. I know that is bad but I just did not want all the fuss. My mom is not all fussy like that. Anyway, I am hoping that my life will be back to normal soon. The leg pain is gone. It was the worst bone pain I have ever felt in my life. It was kind of like growing pains but 100 x worse. My doctor said that was a first for her. She had never heard of leg pain with gallbladder disease. It even hurt down into my feet. I pretty much hurt all over. So I guess I can go down in history as having leg pain. I knew if I woke up and the leg pain was still there that there was something terribly wrong. I was so relieved for it to be gone!

My kitchen has been a wreck! They delivered the island and it is beautiful! The granite top is suppose to be here hopefully by the end of the week. I hope so since we are doing our annual cookie baking this weekend. The island is 4 x 8 and it even has a plate rack where you can slide all your dinner plates in and huge deep drawers and tons of cabinet space. Just the top alone is over 6oo lbs! I still have my old smaller island in the corner of the kitchen. I cannot lift anything so I have to wait until my brother can pick it up this weekend. I had to order new bar stools because the new island is taller. I ordered them off overstock.com and got a super deal. I love that place. I will post pics if I ever get my kitchen back to normal.

Surgery!

I have not had a chance to update but since my last post a lot has happened. I found out that my gallbladder is only working at 8% and has to come out. I have been miserable but still managed to get in 2 cardio sessions this week, HA,I will teach that gallbladder to mess with me, JK. I am really bummed because my workouts have suffered. I am a little concerned with the pain though, the leg pain is unbearable. It sometimes shoots down into my feet and I have even had a terrible pain in my left arm that radiates down into my hand. It is the worse pain ever. Behind my right knee feels like someone is stabbing me. I am assuming this is all gallbladder related. It has gone from bad to worse in just a few days. I met with the surgeon today and it is coming out first thing in the morning. Wish me luck! I will be back with a vengeance soon. Hopefully recovery will only be 2-3 weeks and I will be back at it.

Feeling the need to post

I have been so busy lately but thought I would at least post something so you guys will know I have not fallen off the face of the earth. I am off for the next 5 days and really in need of a break.

Workouts are great and my eating has been really good for off season. I am sticking to my plan and it makes a huge difference. I am having some issues with my stomach though, pretty sure it is gallbladder. I went to the doctor and he made me come back the next morning for an ultra-sound. It scared me a bit considering I had a big time gallbladder attack a few weeks back. It is not fun let me tell you. It brought me to my knees and I could not move. All this after eating a handful of mixed nuts. I so will not be touching those again for awhile. I should find out the results of the US on Friday, Monday at the latest.

By the time I get up at 4am and do my cardio then eat and then train, head to work, work all day and then come home, eat and go to bed at the same time most seniors are going to bed, I feel like I have no evening and no life. Oh well, I choose to do it and I am happy but sometimes I could use a break from it all.

Vacation was suppose to be over Winter Break but probably will not happen. I have had to dip into my vacation funds for some unexpected expenses like,$800 to fix my car, my island is still not finished but should be within a week and I have to pay for the other half of that bad boy (gulp!). To top it off I went to the dentist for my regular cleaning only to find out that I have a freaking cavity, how do you get a cavity by eating chicken and spinach? I mean really? I thought he was just joking because my tooth was not even hurting. I think he put a hex on me because low and behold that little sucker started hurting the next day. I will be getting that done in about a week. My part for that is $400 after insurance. I have had so many expenses this month! It is enough to make you scream, enough already! Tis the season to spend:)

Good times and Fitness

Hi to all my blog friends. I swear I always think I am gonna have time to sit and blog again and then I get busy and I mean really busy and never get to do it. I miss summer when time was so very unimportant. I really need a couple of extra hours in my day just to get it all done some days. Hope all of you are doing fantastic. Oh and things have changed since my last post. We ended up backing out of building the new house. It seems our house has gone down in value and we are just not willing to sell it for as little as it is worth right now. I do love my house that I am in but my step dad who is a builder had offered to build us a house on a little more property. My house is only 3 years old but I decided to change some things in my kitchen. I yanked the bar out and am having a big island custom made for my kitchen. I went and picked out the top for it this morning and whoa! that crap is dang expensive. Instead of granite we got Sile stone which is the next best thing but no maintenance like there is with granite and the color is beautiful. I will post picks when it is all finished.

Halloween was great! We always have Halloween Bunco and I have never laughed so hard in all my life. My abs and my jaws were so sore. My best friend who is super fit and young dressed up like a little old lady with blue hair a big butt and saggy boobs. When she walked in I lost it. Then the crazy one in our group dressed up as a Wal-Mart shopper who had bad teeth, dippling butt and had a baby pinned to her boob. I lost it after that. Here are a few pics. Sorry if you have already seen these on FB or Co-Diva team.




On the Fitness front. Lets just say I rock! I have done so well with my eating since my June comp. I have not gone over the 10 lb mark and I am feeling pretty darn lean these days. No missed workouts ever! I just don't miss them. I have stayed pretty healthy even being around all the kids too. I am sure it is the healthy diet and the glutamine helps too. I am still using Mike Davies as my trainer and probably always will. I so wish he lived in my area so I could train with him in person. I really feel like I have put on some good muscle but know that if he was standing over me I would probably dig a little deeper because that is just what we do when a trainer stands over us plus a spotter would be nice. Just so you know, I am so over food. I do not want to put bad food in my body and love how I feel when I don't. I think I am finally where I want to be mentally and I am very, very close to where I want to be physically other than some fine tuning. It has taken me a very, very long time to get to this point but it makes me smile to be able to say that. I am planning on competing again even though I have waffled on not doing it. I have pretty much made up my mind for the Liberty show again in April. It is all going to depend on our vacation which we will put on hold if I compete.

Race for the Cure 5k

Well I am done with my last 5k for the year and it was great. I beat my time from 2 yrs ago so I was pumped. My time was 28:55 which I did not think was bad at all since I am not really a runner. I enjoyed this run so much although it was so cold. The route was different this year and there was a booger of a hill but I enjoyed the challenge. It really got my heart rate up but right after that there was a big bridge we ran over and most of it was down hill so that rocked. Once we were on top of the hill you could see down below where the finish line was and the archway of pink and white balloons going over the street. You could not see any of the street however because of all the runners. In the middle of the arch there was a beautiful water fall that was really a long ways from the arch but it looked like it was directly under it from far away. It was just beautiful. I took it all in and captured the moment. Even though it started out cold I ended up burning up after about 15 minutes into the run. It must have been 5 min into the race and some poor guy lost his breakfast in the bushes then along the path you would see gloves, hats, socks, shirts, it was hilarious. I guess people just got hot after a bit of running. I bought some running tights to go under my pants and I guess I bought them too big because the only thing holding them up after the race was my crotch! I swear they were all gathered up around my ankles. So note to self, when you buy tights for running, buy them tight! Maybe, that is why they call them tights?

I was sick over the weekend, felt like I was coming down with something. My eating was all screwed up and I am just bored right now. I am taking a week off from training and only do some light cardio in the gym this week. I am trying to stay focused and not get burned out. I will be back in the gym on Monday with a vengance though for sure because it is only Tuesday and I am having withdrawals. I just think my body needs a bit of a rest right now.

Halloween time!

Howdy all my wonderful friends in blog land. I know I don't blog much but just had an extra second and thought I would at least post something. It is October! My favorite month because I love Halloween. The weather is wonderful this time of year and things are starting to settle down at least somewhat. I have been going pretty non stop. I am posting a pic of my costume for this year minus the long blonde wig. I still have to get one but my outfit came today and I am hoping that back in the hippie days high waters were in:0 I have it pulled way down and I am sticking my butt way out, just for the record. I have like 3 shirts on underneath because I put it on over my work clothes so it is a little bunched up. I will sweak it a bit and it will be fabulous.



On the fitness front, things are great. I am still working out at 4am like a crazy person. I am tired by 6pm. My diet is good but this weekend I did not do so great. I am usually a lot more disciplined that I was. I think it was stress of building a house, or NOT! Long story for another day of blogging when I have more time. I am running my 3rd 5k for the year and my last one for this year on Saturday. I will keep you posted.

About that time again

Well since I have gotten used to never posting I guess it is about time I posted something on here. A few updates...... Still using Mike Davies as my trainer and I love him an will probably always use him. You just know it when you find the one, kind of like a great pair of shoes! LOL! Well, since the race pics above, I actually ran another race and would have probably done better than the first had one of my students not fallen just at my heels. I figure if I did not stop and help him it would really look bad on my part and to tell you the truth I thought I could make up the time. I was wrong. I came in right at 30 min which is bad for me. I am doing Race For the Cure in October and that is another "just for fun with friends" kind of thing and then that will be it. I have had a really good off season so far but mentally I have struggled with gaining what normally is a "normal" amount of weight. I think when you have tiny clothes you fit into a few months out of the year it is really mentally challenging when they don't fit the rest of the time. That has been really hard for me! So much so that I emailed Mike and told him I was too fluffy and it was causing me to be depressed and I was leaving on vacation in just under 12 wks and was not bikini worthy. So, I got my wish. I am now on a leaning diet. Let me tell you, after being back on strict dieting I have decided that I need to be careful what I wish for and work on my mental attitude. I truly was working on it but it became too exhausting. I just said screw it I cannot stand this feeling as if nothing fits. Let me just tell you, I followed the before off season diet to a T and took my allowed cheats and I still felt huge but I was getting things that I have never allowed myself in my entire life so what is my mental state suppose to be? Supportive? I think not, not when you are getting things like, steak, mixed nuts, yes the PLANTERS kind, dried apricots and a ton of other things! It was the best diet ever! Well now after sending him pics I am ordered to do 2 cardio sessions a day.I knew I should not have sent the bootie pick:0

My Off Season

I am loving this off season, I get to eat more and workouts are fun and not so sticking grueling. I keep thinking I could just live on off season for the rest of my life but I love my new trainer so much and I see changes daily so I know that he can do a lot for me and I want to see just how far I can go after using him through my off season. I think I will be the best I have been so far. I am diggin the food I get, Peanut butter, mixed nuts and all kinds of great stuff. What is so nice is that I am staying lean, I am fuller but lean! I am hoping to put on some more muscle especially in my legs.

I ran a 5k on Saturday for fun and ran with a friend. Long story short, she got a cramp, I did not want to leave her so I ended up finishing in 29.10 which sucks but I did get 3rd in my age group. I so could have had 1st! I just signed up for another one this Saturday, wow what am I thinking? I just really enjoy them, they are not too far although I could have turned around and went back to the start last Saturday. It is this wonderful diet! I have so much energy all the time. Thanks to my acupuncturist I am sleeping like a baby too. School is a lot less stressful as well, smaller classes, better schedule and I stay away from the mean people. So life is good at the moment.

Here are a few pics from the race. Oh and I look preggo in that shirt, it was too big just so you know. I guess you can see my hair extensions, sorta.

Warning! very boring

This is why I don't post much anymore. My life is BORING! School has started, I love my schedule, love my classes and they are actually smaller. I have only 18 in some of my classes. That is huge considering I am used to having 35 or more. We added Art so it made our classes smaller due to splitting the kids up for rotation.

I have actually been super busy, training and working mostly but still busy. Dave is back out of town and probably will be for several months. He has been having to work some weekends too and it is putting a damper on our weekends.

Training has been great! I hope I am putting on muscle because I am starting to look "fuller" my little clothes are now snug which is fine I guess. I have to do a self talk to myself everyday so I will realize I am on offseason and this is what happens. Then the thought of, "what if I don't want to compete next year" comes up and I start thinking maybe I should not even be doing this but then what else would I do? I love it but I am just not ready to diet strict right now. I enjoy my 2 cheats a week. It is perfect for me and keeps me on track. I can tell I am losing bodyfat but at the same time getting fuller. Does that make sense?

If I told you everything I eat you would not believe me but I am sure it is way over 2500-3000 calories a day. I feel like that is all I ever do. I don't cheat unless it is my authorized cheat meal. I usually take one on Friday night and one on Saturday night since that is when Dave and I like to cook or go out.

I have been training for a 5k so that may be why I am getting so much food but either way I like it. My race is this Saturday but I am a little worried. I did a trial run yesterday and got to about to the 2 1/2 mark and my groin started killing me. I immediatly stopped running so I would not injure it anymore then it dawned on me, this is what happened last year! When I would run it would be around mile 2 or so that it would start to hurt. I am icing it and stretching it in hopes I still get to run on Saturday. Wish me luck.

I have finally come to the conclusion that........

I have finally come to the conclusion that I am freakin high maintenance. I swear the older you get the more there is to keep up. Sorry I have not blogged in so long but I was busy having a fantastic summer. I am so proud of myself and my food this summer. If you have been reading my blog for very long then you will know how hard summers are for me. I have stuck to my off season diet and kept my weight under a 5 lb gain after my June 6th comp but now I am up probably about 8 lbs or more but it is all good because it is what my trainer is telling me to do. I cannot believe how much food I have to eat though. I am training for a 5k though on Aug 29th and I cannot help but think that is why he has me eating so much food. Okay, now back to my high maintenance issues. Well I got hair extensions, yes the real deal. You can wash it, dry it and style it anyway you want, swim in it. It is actually real hair and I love it. I cannot grow my hair long, I have to cut before it gets to that point because of breakage. So, here I am with this hair which has added to the list of many things I have to maintain. I swear I am gonna need a 2nd job in another 10 yrs just to keep up. It is not cheap for a girl to look presentable. If you remember my shoe fetish you will understand when I tell you I have traded emotional eating for buying shoes, oh yow I ended up with 4 pairs of new running shoes before school started. It was then that I realized I had changed the eating for this. I was not upset just a little stressed over going back to school.

I have had a birthday (46), a 29th Wedding Anniversary which was yesterday and I have started back to school since I blogged last. I have been doing acupuncture and I am hooked but another maintenance issue but hey my Plantar Fasciitis is cured and I now sleep all night! I got new glasses, maintenace issue. I am serious the list just keeps growing. So now any free time I have seems to be to get nails, hair, or something else done. When along the way did I become a fru fru girl, a girlie girl? I was never like that, I was the biggest Tom Boy ever!

As far as competing goes, Mike is says that this off season diet and workout is going to change my body, sweet because I am tired of being ask if I do Figure or Fitness and not that those are bad I would love to be a Fitness girl but check out the age above, my bones are old and they will break. So we are going to change my body, that is enough to keep me on my off season diet. I am not sure about another show just yet, if I do decide to do another one it will probably be in April. I am just not ready and really am enjoying my life right now.

School is great, even though I am back at the same place I got a great schedule and my class size is a lot smaller this year since we added a Art class. I am thrilled with it all and it is going to be a good year. Hubby is out of town again and only home on weekends so I have all week to focus on my workouts and eating. It is so much easier when you don't have to worry about cooking for someone else.

Holy crap!

I just thought I could keep up with a blog! Time is flying by so fast and my summer is about to end. I am so sad. It feels like it just started. I thought I would update everyone on what is going on. It has been almost 2 months since my comp and I have only put on 5 lbs! I am so thrilled with myself because this is huge for me. I think I finally figured it all out. I have been on my after comp diet and doing pretty well although I did cheat more than I was suppose to. Hey it is summer and I have had lots of celebrating to do. I have enjoyed my share of margaritas that is for sure. I am renewing my workouts and getting a new diet next week so when school starts on the 10th, (my birthday which sucks)I will have a new workout regimen and new diets. I have just been so bored lately. If I must go back to work and have to be on a schedule I do really well with my diet so here we go, oh boy.

On the job front, still looking, keeping fingers crossed. It is never too late even after schools starts. I need to love my job again and I will someday.

Hubby has been home all summer and as of today he will be gone a lot. I am going to be lucky to see him once a week. That is another reason I do very well when school starts and he is out of town. I am on a tight schedule and there is not much cooking going on so how can I fail. I work, workout and sleep, that is about it. I will do this for the next 9 months and then vacation for 3. We do have a beach trip planned for December when I am out for Winter Break so that will be something to look forward to.

I have two friends who are competing next week and it was a show I thought long and hard about doing but decided to relax this summer. I am looking forward to cheering them on, one is figure and one is bb so I am pumped and hopefully it will light my fire again. I go back and forth, I want to compete, I don't, I want to, I don't. I really do want to. SEE! I did sell my black suit but only because I have worn it twice and want something different so that will be another expense on top of everything else.

I am so sore!

I am not talking from working out either! I had acupuncture done for the first time and let me tell you I thought I would die. I really do have a hi pain tolerance too. I had my daughter natural, no drugs at all and was in labor for 36 hrs. I have heard from several people that it does not hurt but it really did hurt me. Why? Was it because I was all tense when I walked in. I was a walking mess today. I felt shaky inside like my nerves where on edge. Things have been really great, workouts are great, eating is super and I feel really good other than I am having the same sleep problem again. I wake up a million times in the night and it makes me just exhausted by morning. I have only 3 weeks left until school starts and had pretty much decided I was going to go back and just stay focused and try not to sweat the small stuff until I did a really stupid thing this week. I was forwarding an email to my mom so she could read it, it was from my principle and so I went to my sent box and typed in the subject line, "devils lies" and when you are short on sleep you should really not be aloud to touch a send button because yes, that is what I did :( as if I needed anymore stress in my life at work. I suck! I spent the last two days stressing about it and I even owned up to it and told her it was intended for my mom and even though I was just being silly it REALLY looks bad and I am so not an evil person even though if I was going to be evil this would be the person I would want to be evil to, I am just sayin'

Thank you for all your post and emails about my last post, my feet! I am hoping the acupuncture helps although I did get a new pair of shoes, thanks Wendee! and it did make a huge difference. I have been doing cardio 6 x a week and still going crazy in the gym. I feel fit and lean. I still have a little bit of abs to show off and veins are crazy in my arms. This weekend is hubby's 30 year reunion and I think it will be fun. We went to school together in a small town so everyone knows everyone so I have lots of friends in his class as well. I am excited to see all of them!

Too old and ass cheeks.

I was reading an article somewhere I think, Glamour or something one day and there was a list of things you should not do if you are approaching 50. This list was not anything unusual you know, stuff like micro-minis and things like that. I can guarantee you that you will never see me in one of those even when I was 20. Anyway, the list included a nose ring and I have really thought about doing this. I think they are cute and I really wanted to get a small one so I guess the rebel in me said WHATEVER because I did it and I love it! It did not hurt at all either. No telling what I will do next! Someday when I am a grandma I am gonna have to explain the hole in my nose and the tatoo across my bikini line, LOL!

We went out with friends last weekend for dinner and then to a piano bar. It was a lot of fun but obviously we were the "older" ones in there. I mean there were some people that were probably a little older but not by much. We got there around 8pm so I guess that shows our age but around 11pm when I was ready to go so I could go to bed like old people do that is when the young crowd started showing up as if it was the beginning of their night. I remember doing that but now there is no way. I could never stay up that late. I guess the one thing that kind of blew my mind was the dresses that these 20 somethings are wearing, they are really tight and they are so short their ass cheeks hang out the back. These girls are not exactly petite either, they have cellulite and fat asses from the drive thrus this generation has grown up on. It is like nothing to them, a part of life I guess. All I know is, my jaw dropped when I saw their asses and the whole time I was thinking, I would look better in that dress than that 20 something but I of course would never dream of letting my ass cheeks hang out of anything.

On the diet and fitness front I am doing pretty well. My diet has been great but I think my body needs a rest with the workouts. I think I have taken 2 days off since my comp. I have so many little aches and pains and I know that it is my body screaming for me to rest. I am deaf and just do not want to admit it. My shoulder is still sore, my elbow is acting up for some strange reason, my knees are hurting, my feet are killing me (plantar FASHEEWHATER) and ever now and then I get muscle cramps like no other! You have to understand on top of all this I am doing some serious manual labor around my house. I will not bore you with the details but lets just say, I am working hard. The good news is I can do 3 unassisted chin ups now and that makes me feel like a real bad ass! I go around pulling up on everything now, because well, I can!

Flying!

The weeks are flying by these days and soon my summer will be over. I guess I have been trying so hard to suck every minute out of the days I have neglected my blog. I am such a bad girl. I had good intentions but oh well, I am enjoying myself more than ever. This has probably been the best summer ever. I have spent so much time with family and friends and I feel like I am on top of the world. I love summer more than anytime of the year even when it is super hot like it has been.

I just received my photos from the photographer and this one is my favorite because it really shows off my abs, well not so much on blogger but if you saw this in person I think you would would like it.

I am selling my black blinged out evening suit and figure if I compete again I want a new one anyway. I plan on possibly competing next year but want a new suit and a new routine to go with it.

Things are good on the fitness front. I am working out hard and my diet has been about 80%.I still can see my abs, not as much but they are still popping out. I love my shoulders and back and get lot of compliments on my arms, my ass not so much. That was the first place it started coming back and then it was the hips and that was trying really hard but I cannot stay on a comp diet year round so I am trying to get used to a little more junk in the trunk. I really need to buckle down though because hubby's reunion is at the end of July and that does give me some incentive.

Now, if I can just find the time to catch up on everyone else's blog! I miss everyone but cannot seem to fit everything in. I have been ask to join a team on tracker too and that is one more thing to keep up with but I think I will do it, kind of a mini challenge.

Tulsa show June 6th

Here are a few pics a friend took. I see now why I got 2nd in Novice. Although I improved a bunch and was super happy, I still have some work to do on my lower body. I got the judges comments today and it got me all pump about competing again, oh wait! I told my family I was done, crap how am I gonna break that to them? Let's just say I have been back to eating clean since Sunday:)

When you just know.

Me being a dork!

I have used a lot of trainers but you know you just know when you find the right one. I love Mike Davies and what he has done in 5 weeks what no other trainer has ever done for me. I think all my trainers have been wonderful in there own way and would recommend any of them but I do think if you are going to use one you have to find the one that works for you. Well, I found him and I am hoping to keep him around because he has the magic for me. Yes, I have to work my butt off but oh well if that is what it takes.

I had such a wonderful time at this comp. Thank you all for the kind words on my last post.You all are so great. I am in a really good place and only took 2 cheat meals with dessert and my new diet and workouts were in my email when I got home so I am back at it and feeling great. I am enjoying Peanut butter and protein shakes which I did miss the most the last several months so this diet is very doable for me. My goal is to go back to work in August looking as good as I did in May.I have not wanted any bad food and have not even touch one peanut M&M at all. I just don't want anything. I hope that continues.

There are lots of pics I am going to post but have not had a chance. I need to order some from the photography company because they are really good and I like them but it takes several weeks to get them but I will post them as soon as I do.

I am ready to relax a little and enjoy my summer! Thanks again to all my wonderful friends for your comments. They mean the world to me.

Go ahead, ask me how much fun I had!

I will blog more about my show but I just wanted to post some pics really fast. Here is the low down on how it went.

2nd place Novice
1st place Masters
1st place Ms. Oklahoma Natural Bodybuilder

4 days to go!

Rice cakes are like little cardboard frisbees but they are like a treat right now.

6 days to go!

I had a great workout this morning at the track. I ran bleachers and then 10/40 yard sprints. I then walked a mile just to cool off. It was beautiful outside.

This is what happens when you eat a lot of fish.

1 Week out!

13 days out

My abs are trying their best to come out. I can see them more right after my last meal of the day which includes an entire cup of brown rice. I am sure it is the carbs. It is funny how we all think we should not eat carbs at night and most trainers will have you eat them in the morning but not this time. They are my very last meal. It is nice because I do tend to sleep better most of the time.

1 more day of school and I will be doing the happy dance. I plan on catching up and seeing what all my peeps have been up to.

End of the season celebration!

Hubby brought this home last night! This will be my end of the season celebration! (chips and Salsa not pictured) 15 days out!

Stupid blogger

I have changed my settings and for some reason my comment link will not show up. I am pretty much just posting this to see if it is there on this post. I am getting your messages through my email. Thanks you guys, you guys have always been there for me. I am 19 days out and ready to do this. I am sick to death of dieting so strict. This will be it for at least a year. I am super lean right now, I can see some serious abs but I am thin, thin. I weighed 116 yesterday and have nothing to wear:0

I won! I won!

Oh yes, I won this and I have no idea how. It was in my mailbox at school and it had something to do with PTA. Our PTA is so interested in Health that they decided to give out some family fun packs. They have spent the year selling sugar filled, calorie dense candy bars to our kids too. When they could not sell all of them they offered them half price during the student's lunch period. I have been so frustrated this year since I am on the Healthy School Committee but I have quickly learned that if the head honcho does not care about her own fitness why would she care about anyone else and it is all about the money for sure. I can understand wanting more for our school but there are so many other ways to go about raising money that does not have to do with using our kids. The very worst part about it is they took away my PE budget this year and I got no explanation whatsoever. I have had the same budget for 12 years and when I went to place an order I was told there was no money and wouldn't be.

Needless to say I do not plan on going back. I have some plans in the works that I cannot really talk about since my blog is not private, maybe I should make it private. I will fill you in when I make some decisions.

So you are probably wondering what I did with this nice movie pack. Well, to tell you the truth I was packing up some stuff at work and putting everything in my car and I realized last night after our 85 degree weather that I left it sitting in the back of my car so it is probably one big pile of chocolate goo. I plan on taking it out today and throwing it away. I refuse to put that crap in my body especially at this point. I am 21 days out and ready to do this. The days cannot go fast enough. My diet is not fun at all like it was with Julie. I loved her diets and her workouts and hope to go back to her in the Fall like I mentioned before. I can barely get my food down without gagging, tuna will never be part of my diet again after this. I am already thinking about what I plan on doing diet wise after comp. I am sure it will include BFL though. I have 6 more days of school and I am free.

diet change?

I think I am going to have to ask for a diet change. It has been one week and with all the fish in my diet I have been having some unusual things happening that I do not care to go into detail about. Very disgusting if I do say so myself. If you read the Diva thread you will know what I am talking about. I have felt nauseated for the past two days. I have been on this diet of orange roughy twice a day and tuna twice a day on top of the asparagus and all the other greens. There is a little chicken and egg whites but not much. Oh and I do get some really yummy steak. I get a lot to eat and I am never really hungry. Lets just say I am afraid to leave home away from the restroom. I am getting leaner and the clothes thing has become a huge problem. Although I weigh more than I did my very first show when I bought all those tiny clothes well they are huge now! I am struggle daily just to find something that is not 2-4 sizes too big. The weather has been crappy so I am lucky I can still wear baggy sweats to work but everything else is pitiful. I do plan on putting some weight back on so I hate to spend the money on smaller clothes. I only have 10 days of school left so I guess I will just tough it out.

I am still playing around with my blog and intend on adding a bunch of blogs I read but have not had a chance. I will have more time when school is out and wanted you to all know that I plan on getting back into blogging this summer. I have missed it. Now if I can just figure out how to get that advertisement off the top of my blog I will be happy.

EVIL............

If you have been reading my blog for any length of time you will know that my weakness is Trail mix. I know that April is gaw gaw over it too. I bought a couple of the small bags to go in my hubs lunch this past week and I had to sit and look at the little bag of cocaine in the drawer all week. Does he eat it? No, He usually works out of town but has been in town this past week so I have made him a nice lunch. He keeps bringing the little bags of cocaine back home and so just about the time I think I have whooped it, the damn thing appears again. I obviously cannot have them now anyway but I do plan on enjoying some after comp. I never really craved it the last two comps but boy howdy I am this time. I did find a healthy version of the carb loaded cocaine so I thought I would share. Here is the link for it,I plan on making it after comp.

I think whether you compete or not we all have to deal with this on a daily basis. It has been the trail mix for me and next week I am sure it will be something else so I cannot let them derail my efforts. I mean I am kickin ass in the gym and my eating is spot on so why would I want to screw that up? Everyday I wake up and can see my abs a little bit more and then I know that it was all worth it but had I not made the decision to do that, I would have hated myself the next morning because my abs would not be there. I am actually getting the side abs (obliques) and I love it. It is more noticeable on one side than the other but it is something I have never seen before so it is way kewl.

Secretly trying to kill me!

This week is teacher appreciation week at our school so the PTA has decided to bring in lunch everyday for us and put cute little gifts and lots of candy in our mailboxes. When I first started teaching I learned realy quick that I needed to stay out of the lounge. I mean all you have to do is look around and there are a lot of overweight teachers, they are over worked, under paid and are stressed out most of the time. Anyway, today my co-worker comes walking out to the gym with a box that had cows all over it. He tells me that he stole my lunch because he knew I would not eat it. Each teacher was given a box form a place called Chik-fil-a.Inside the box was a fried chicken sandwich, fries and a chocolate nut brownie. Just for the fun of it I pulled up the nutritional value of these 3 items and this is what was actually in the box.

1220 calories
2670 mg of sodium
60 grams of fat
35 grams of sugar
40 grams of protein

Needless to say I was a snob again today. I think they are secretly trying to kill me.

Tuesday, May 5th

Today is Cinco de mayo! Boy would I love to celebrate with some margaritas. I have not had a drink in so long I don't even know if I could handle it. I did have a few of sips of red wine the night before my last comp, I swear my toes were tingling after about the third sip.. I know I am a sissy. I just stopped having the occasionaly drink about 2 years ago when I decided I would rather eat my calories than drink them.

Well, school is quickly coming to an end. I will miss some of my kids that move on but I will be glad when others move on quickly. My year has been so stressful and I have counted down the days since Sept. There are only 13 more days left.

My new workouts are killer but I love them. I am using Mike Davies for my last 4 weeks of prep for this show. I need to make a huge difference and I felt that was best for me right now. The diet is very doable but there is a lot of food to prepare, no more shakes. I would love to use Julie again when I am finished and I would recommend her to anyone! Matter of fact I am looking at using her again in the Fall but I do not have anymore comps planned once this one is over. As far as cardio goes, it is a kick butt 30 minute session of HITT. I love the way I feel when I am finished.

I got my pics back from the KS comp and I was a bit disapointed because I felt I should have placed higher even though my legs never did come in, they looked very swollen as a matter of fact. I will post them as soon as I have a chance to scan them.

I stuck my nose up today to a lot of good food and massages in the lounge. This is teacher appreciation week. The kids all wrote letters to me and had it made into a book and the front cover has my name and it says, We love you because..... It is adorable and I laughed out loud at some of the letters.

Are you one too?

I named my new blog the Fitness Snob because I think it fits me. I have been wanting to start a new fresh blog so here it is. I call it this because I am such a fitness geek and I sometimes get looks from people who think I am nuts. It is all good though because I can stick my nose in the air when I pass a drive-thru,why? Because I am better than that, or I can stick my nose up at sugary donuts left in the lounge every morning when I get to work, why? because I am better than that. I can stick my nose up at the candy dish on the corner of a co-workers desk, the table snacks left all over the place at a party why? Because, yes you guessed it I am better than that!

Because I am better than that, I choose to eat healthy and to put good food into my body, why? Because you do not get a second body in life so you must take care of the one you were given. So, are you a snob too? Do you make sure your body gets some kind of exercise everyday to keep it running smoothly? Do you pass these traits onto your children so they will understand the importance of it all too,you cannot rely on someone else to do that part of parenting for you.

I stick my nose up at the elevator and I take the stairs instead. I stick my nose up at parking as close as I can get to the Mall but instead opt for the parking spot in the far distance. There are so many things and ways you can be a fitness snob. I bet you are one too if you are reading this right now, why? Because I am pretty good about surrounding myself with other Fitness Snobs.