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Monday, September 21, 2009
About that time again
Well since I have gotten used to never posting I guess it is about time I posted something on here. A few updates...... Still using Mike Davies as my trainer and I love him an will probably always use him. You just know it when you find the one, kind of like a great pair of shoes! LOL! Well, since the race pics above, I actually ran another race and would have probably done better than the first had one of my students not fallen just at my heels. I figure if I did not stop and help him it would really look bad on my part and to tell you the truth I thought I could make up the time. I was wrong. I came in right at 30 min which is bad for me. I am doing Race For the Cure in October and that is another "just for fun with friends" kind of thing and then that will be it. I have had a really good off season so far but mentally I have struggled with gaining what normally is a "normal" amount of weight. I think when you have tiny clothes you fit into a few months out of the year it is really mentally challenging when they don't fit the rest of the time. That has been really hard for me! So much so that I emailed Mike and told him I was too fluffy and it was causing me to be depressed and I was leaving on vacation in just under 12 wks and was not bikini worthy. So, I got my wish. I am now on a leaning diet. Let me tell you, after being back on strict dieting I have decided that I need to be careful what I wish for and work on my mental attitude. I truly was working on it but it became too exhausting. I just said screw it I cannot stand this feeling as if nothing fits. Let me just tell you, I followed the before off season diet to a T and took my allowed cheats and I still felt huge but I was getting things that I have never allowed myself in my entire life so what is my mental state suppose to be? Supportive? I think not, not when you are getting things like, steak, mixed nuts, yes the PLANTERS kind, dried apricots and a ton of other things! It was the best diet ever! Well now after sending him pics I am ordered to do 2 cardio sessions a day.I knew I should not have sent the bootie pick:0
5 comments:
I'm going to tell you something perhaps a little hard, but it's for your own good :-p :-p.
Stop being harsh on yourself. You're a human being, you can't be the sort of person you ideally want to be, 24/7, so get over it and don't self inflict emotional hurt, it's doing you no favours.
There, that wasnn't hard was it? ;-) ;-).
You're doing a really great job of everything. You just need to stop and appreciate how much you've put into yourself.
Look at the recent pics of your comp. You are a walking work of art, You look fabulous, and compared to potentially 70% of the worlds people, who have the chance to change and waste or spurn it, you are a potential masterclass in good living, and how to age with grace, dignity and beauty.
You deserve to be so, so proud of yourself, for how hard you've worked, to be the superb athlete you are today.
I have never wanted to do a show in my life, but I train hard enough, to be able to have some understanding, of how much you must give on a virtually daily basis, and how tough it must be to train for comps, let alone be you on a normal you kind of day.
If your body was a temple, those of us posting here, would be worshippers, and I think despite my atheism, I'm allowed to use such a word in this instance :-p.
You are someone who defines the potential of todays 40+ female.
You help to redefine what aging can be these days. You are a person who ages in a modern way, if that is an accurate wording. A Lady who doesn't lie down and let life do it's thing.
Life isn't always easy, and sometimes some of the best people, get some hideous life experiences, but you are someone who has had what you deserve. A great life, and lots of emotional happiness.
So you need to keep focusing on the positives, and don't go back to unneccesary little doubts and what if's. Been there done that, that's not you anymore is it.
Keep on doing what you do, and keep reminding yourself, you are a Lady of 46 years young, youthfully mature, with luminous energetic eyes, and a smile that can light up the universe.
You are what you are, because of all you have done to make it happen, and everyone here knows what it means, and what it's worth to us all in it's own way.
I THANK YOU again, for everything you are, and have been to me. Your energy and boundless youth, inspire and energise me, and without you, I would be slightly poorer in life.
So don't find ways to punish, find ways to appreciate and accept who you are now. It's thanks to that, you have a successful life, and people in your life, me included, who think so much of you, and are proud and grateful to know you in the ways we do.
Just look at the photos at the very start of your blog, about 3 years ago. Man you're so much more now, physically, and you were pretty damn good back then.
GOoD LUCK keeping on doing your thing and as always, my unconditional support, and anything I can do, will be yours anytime.
Take care Superwoman, and keep that chin up and keep smiling. You ARE doing fantastically well and you always look sublime.
The sun does shine brighter, because of people like you, so keep shining yeah.
:-) :-).
Matt
Aren't the head games exhausting! Glad your back to blogging :)
I have read so many times that the off season is the hardest part mentally. You just need to tell yourself that your body just can't be at that state for long periods of time...it is just not healthy. The weight you've put on is much needed for your brain and organs, and I'm sure you may "feel" fluffy and your tiny clothes are snug or don't fit, but I would bet you are still fit and hot with a tad more meat on that beautiful body of yours. Stop beating yourself up girl. You are in a place where it won't take to much time to get back into comp condition, so just enjoy yourself, eat healthy, but also have a treat now and again.
Aw, you're so hard on yourself girl! You look absolutely amazing! Wish I could work as hard and look like you! SO much going on, just can't focus on it right now. Hugs!
I ditto everyone else's comments. The "fluffy" you is a gorgeous and fit woman!!!!!
xoxo
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