4 weeks and starting to wear down

Well it was 4 weeks out on Saturday and I am starting to feel like I have been run over. I am sure it is due to lack of sleep lately. My weigh in was Saturday and I am right at 116 which is 3 lbs smaller than my last competition. I thought I was pretty darn lean then so you can imagine how I am feeling now. I still have some stubborn little fat on my thighs and just under my butt cheeks. That is where I always carry my extra weight so of course it is going to be the last to come off.

I am not eager to eat crap like I was my first couple of shows. I have learned after competing now for the 4th time that it is not worth it. The only thing I really am missing is having a cheat meal once a week. I love to cook and miss cooking healthy meals, like my healthy pizza and protein cookies. I have never been one to eat crap at all. I guess that is why the dieting down does not really bother me. I weigh now what I weighed in High School, HA! but then I did not have the fat pockets lingering around and my hips were not as wide. Welcome to mommyhood. I would not change that for a second anyway so I don't mind the wide hips and fat pockets.

I am learning a lot about myself and what is important. I am almost 90% sure that my June comp will be my last. I need to finish my Master's degree which I have been putting off and I am not getting any younger.

I cannot figure out all the new blogs but so want to change mine and get back at it. I am eager to have my summer vacation time so I can spend a little time catching up. I do have a lot planned in a short time though so I hope I don't have to keep putting that off. I remember how I loved blogging and I do miss it.

We are booked for 5 days in Mexico after the Tulsa show and I plan on enjoying some R&R. I love going on vacation right after comp because I feel so good in my bikini that I don't even feel the need to cover up.

School is out in just 4 weeks and my vacation will begin. It has been another very long year for me. If there was ever a time for me to be able to transfer it will be this next year. Fingers crossed for me on that one.

I have to send pics to my trainer next week, if they turn out decent I will post them.

Time has gotten away from me.

Just wanted to post something since I seemed to have missed posting over the weekend. I am now 4.5 weeks out and counting. I am so ready to do this and get on with my life. I am getting tired and weary from the dieting. I contemplated even doing this show and although it has been a pretty easy prep I am struggling mentally now. I am starving all the time, probably due to all the cardio I am doing and I am not doing all the cardio I was suppose to do. There was no way I could work and do all that cardio so I just do the best I can. This is suppose to be fun for me and when it no longer is fun I will be calling it quits. My sleep has not been great, it is hit or miss. I wake up starving and then cannot go back to bed. It is enough to make you want to jump off a cliff! I am sick to death of fish and asparagus. I eat tuna and asparagus at 8am everyday. Some of my evening meals are only spaced 1.5 hrs apart because I cannot wait any longer without killing something or someone.

My weight is sitting at 117 and has consistently gone down week after week. I have no clothes to wear but yet I still have fat on my butt and the back of my legs. I know it is the last to go and hell if it doesn't I am screwed because my new suit came in and the bottoms are tight. When I pulled it from the package I had to laugh because it was so tiny!

So there it is, not much else going on. I am booked for a cruise in June and look forward to some serious R&R on the beach.

6 weeks and counting

I cannot believe how fast this prep is going. I am sure it is because I am staying so busy with the end of school and other stuff. Only 6 more weeks of school and I will be free. I can hardly wait! I need a break so bad and am looking forward to a Mexico vacation in June just sitting on the beach drinking margaritas.

Prep is going great. This was my first week that was really tough with a new meal change mostly because I felt very hungry. I emailed Mike and he added some stuff so hopefully it will help this week. I was really wanting to eat something other than asparagus and chicken this weekend but of course I did not do it. I cannot wait to have some Pei Wei my favorite restaurant. I am leaning out more this time around and I hope that keeps up. I am sitting at 118.4 pounds right now and have consistently lost weight ever week but one and the week after that I lost more so it all evened out I guess. The bad part about this is that I don't have anything to wear. It would be great if I was rich and could buy a ton of cute clothes but I hate to spend the money only to be able to wear it for one summer. Although, my goal is to stay at 120 from now on. I thought 125 was perfect for me but I just feel better at 120 and I think I look good in my clothes.

Well there is the update, I will be posting pics next week. I wish I had time to post them weekly but I don't so I will do it when I can. Suit will be here this week and then off to a friends who is stoning it for me. I still need to send in my entry stuff but that is pretty much it. I am ready to rock this and meet up with all my Diva friends.

7 weeks to go.

Yes, I am counting down the days. It is not so much so I can have a cheat but just that I can relax a bit. I am still feeling pretty darn good for 7 weeks out. I do have my days where I do not have a lot of energy but I am working on getting more sleep this time around even if it cuts into some of my cardio time. I know that sounds bad but I am consistently losing so I think I will be okay, I hope anyway. Although, this was the first week the scale did not budge one ounce but hopefully that means this week there will be even a bigger drop. I am leaning out slowly and my metabolism is revved up! I am starving 5 minutes after I eat so that sucks. I have had no cravings whatsoever. I am not taking any fat burners either, I never have. I figure I don't need my body screwed up anymore than what the actual dieting does to it so I only take my vitamins and that is it.
I am using this blog mostly for a journal so I will be able to look back at where I was but thanks for the comments you guys left. I hope my blog can become a little more interesting this summer when I have more time.I will try to post progress pics next week.

8 weeks out already!

The time is flying by! My weight is steadily going down,maybe a little too fast, I dunno but I was 121.6 today. I still have a lot of fat to lose off the booty, hips and thighs but hey I am a girl and that is what we all have to do. Sticking to the eating 100% but have not done all the cardio. My knees started giving me fits so I took a rest day yesterday. I feel like I am pretty close to being at a good place for this far out. That is less then 3 lbs from my last comp weight.

I hate taking pics but here ya go, I am sooooo white and as you can see I still have a long way to go on the lower body.

9.5 weeks!!!!!

I know, I suck at keeping this whole blog thing going but I love going back months later and reading it. I have no time for blogs, email or much computer time as it is. I am doing cardio 2x a day and my workouts are pretty long on most days. I am hanging in there though and loving the changes I am seeing. I have been 100% on the diet but have missed a few evening cardio sessions.

Spring Break is on! I am loving being off and I spent 4 days in my house and never left. I cleaned it from top to bottom and let me tell you, you could eat off my floor! I have 3600 sq ft of space and it has been neglected due to work and workouts. I feel so much better now though and it is all so organized. I feel like I can really focus on these last 9.5 weeks. Not sure if I mentioned that I am 11.5 weeks out from the Tulsa show too. So I have been super busy but the next couple of days I will try to relax a bit. I do plan on working on my routine and practicing lots of posing.

Thank you all who still come over here and read this boring blog. Maybe this summer I can make it a little more exciting!

11 weeks out and looking for the sun.

The sun motivates me because it means shorts and tank tops with flip flops. That is why I want to live on the beach, so I can wear that all the time. I have no use for heels or coats or anything else although I do have to say I love boots.

11 weeks out today and I am draggin ass! I have been given lots of cardio to do by my trainer. I have a lot of work to do but I am confident I can do it but I truly feel like I am 3 weeks out right now energy wise. I need to get more rest plus I have had sinus crap so that has drained me.

I was checking out my 3 week pics from before and I was very happy with them so I know there is hope. I only started using Mike the last 5 weeks of my comp prep so I am sure in the next month I will feel better about where I am at.

Spring Break is in 1 week and I need it. I plan on cleaning my house top to bottom and getting myself organized so I can really focus for the next 11 weeks.