End of the season celebration!

Hubby brought this home last night! This will be my end of the season celebration! (chips and Salsa not pictured) 15 days out!

Stupid blogger

I have changed my settings and for some reason my comment link will not show up. I am pretty much just posting this to see if it is there on this post. I am getting your messages through my email. Thanks you guys, you guys have always been there for me. I am 19 days out and ready to do this. I am sick to death of dieting so strict. This will be it for at least a year. I am super lean right now, I can see some serious abs but I am thin, thin. I weighed 116 yesterday and have nothing to wear:0

I won! I won!

Oh yes, I won this and I have no idea how. It was in my mailbox at school and it had something to do with PTA. Our PTA is so interested in Health that they decided to give out some family fun packs. They have spent the year selling sugar filled, calorie dense candy bars to our kids too. When they could not sell all of them they offered them half price during the student's lunch period. I have been so frustrated this year since I am on the Healthy School Committee but I have quickly learned that if the head honcho does not care about her own fitness why would she care about anyone else and it is all about the money for sure. I can understand wanting more for our school but there are so many other ways to go about raising money that does not have to do with using our kids. The very worst part about it is they took away my PE budget this year and I got no explanation whatsoever. I have had the same budget for 12 years and when I went to place an order I was told there was no money and wouldn't be.

Needless to say I do not plan on going back. I have some plans in the works that I cannot really talk about since my blog is not private, maybe I should make it private. I will fill you in when I make some decisions.

So you are probably wondering what I did with this nice movie pack. Well, to tell you the truth I was packing up some stuff at work and putting everything in my car and I realized last night after our 85 degree weather that I left it sitting in the back of my car so it is probably one big pile of chocolate goo. I plan on taking it out today and throwing it away. I refuse to put that crap in my body especially at this point. I am 21 days out and ready to do this. The days cannot go fast enough. My diet is not fun at all like it was with Julie. I loved her diets and her workouts and hope to go back to her in the Fall like I mentioned before. I can barely get my food down without gagging, tuna will never be part of my diet again after this. I am already thinking about what I plan on doing diet wise after comp. I am sure it will include BFL though. I have 6 more days of school and I am free.

diet change?

I think I am going to have to ask for a diet change. It has been one week and with all the fish in my diet I have been having some unusual things happening that I do not care to go into detail about. Very disgusting if I do say so myself. If you read the Diva thread you will know what I am talking about. I have felt nauseated for the past two days. I have been on this diet of orange roughy twice a day and tuna twice a day on top of the asparagus and all the other greens. There is a little chicken and egg whites but not much. Oh and I do get some really yummy steak. I get a lot to eat and I am never really hungry. Lets just say I am afraid to leave home away from the restroom. I am getting leaner and the clothes thing has become a huge problem. Although I weigh more than I did my very first show when I bought all those tiny clothes well they are huge now! I am struggle daily just to find something that is not 2-4 sizes too big. The weather has been crappy so I am lucky I can still wear baggy sweats to work but everything else is pitiful. I do plan on putting some weight back on so I hate to spend the money on smaller clothes. I only have 10 days of school left so I guess I will just tough it out.

I am still playing around with my blog and intend on adding a bunch of blogs I read but have not had a chance. I will have more time when school is out and wanted you to all know that I plan on getting back into blogging this summer. I have missed it. Now if I can just figure out how to get that advertisement off the top of my blog I will be happy.

EVIL............

If you have been reading my blog for any length of time you will know that my weakness is Trail mix. I know that April is gaw gaw over it too. I bought a couple of the small bags to go in my hubs lunch this past week and I had to sit and look at the little bag of cocaine in the drawer all week. Does he eat it? No, He usually works out of town but has been in town this past week so I have made him a nice lunch. He keeps bringing the little bags of cocaine back home and so just about the time I think I have whooped it, the damn thing appears again. I obviously cannot have them now anyway but I do plan on enjoying some after comp. I never really craved it the last two comps but boy howdy I am this time. I did find a healthy version of the carb loaded cocaine so I thought I would share. Here is the link for it,I plan on making it after comp.

I think whether you compete or not we all have to deal with this on a daily basis. It has been the trail mix for me and next week I am sure it will be something else so I cannot let them derail my efforts. I mean I am kickin ass in the gym and my eating is spot on so why would I want to screw that up? Everyday I wake up and can see my abs a little bit more and then I know that it was all worth it but had I not made the decision to do that, I would have hated myself the next morning because my abs would not be there. I am actually getting the side abs (obliques) and I love it. It is more noticeable on one side than the other but it is something I have never seen before so it is way kewl.

Secretly trying to kill me!

This week is teacher appreciation week at our school so the PTA has decided to bring in lunch everyday for us and put cute little gifts and lots of candy in our mailboxes. When I first started teaching I learned realy quick that I needed to stay out of the lounge. I mean all you have to do is look around and there are a lot of overweight teachers, they are over worked, under paid and are stressed out most of the time. Anyway, today my co-worker comes walking out to the gym with a box that had cows all over it. He tells me that he stole my lunch because he knew I would not eat it. Each teacher was given a box form a place called Chik-fil-a.Inside the box was a fried chicken sandwich, fries and a chocolate nut brownie. Just for the fun of it I pulled up the nutritional value of these 3 items and this is what was actually in the box.

1220 calories
2670 mg of sodium
60 grams of fat
35 grams of sugar
40 grams of protein

Needless to say I was a snob again today. I think they are secretly trying to kill me.

Tuesday, May 5th

Today is Cinco de mayo! Boy would I love to celebrate with some margaritas. I have not had a drink in so long I don't even know if I could handle it. I did have a few of sips of red wine the night before my last comp, I swear my toes were tingling after about the third sip.. I know I am a sissy. I just stopped having the occasionaly drink about 2 years ago when I decided I would rather eat my calories than drink them.

Well, school is quickly coming to an end. I will miss some of my kids that move on but I will be glad when others move on quickly. My year has been so stressful and I have counted down the days since Sept. There are only 13 more days left.

My new workouts are killer but I love them. I am using Mike Davies for my last 4 weeks of prep for this show. I need to make a huge difference and I felt that was best for me right now. The diet is very doable but there is a lot of food to prepare, no more shakes. I would love to use Julie again when I am finished and I would recommend her to anyone! Matter of fact I am looking at using her again in the Fall but I do not have anymore comps planned once this one is over. As far as cardio goes, it is a kick butt 30 minute session of HITT. I love the way I feel when I am finished.

I got my pics back from the KS comp and I was a bit disapointed because I felt I should have placed higher even though my legs never did come in, they looked very swollen as a matter of fact. I will post them as soon as I have a chance to scan them.

I stuck my nose up today to a lot of good food and massages in the lounge. This is teacher appreciation week. The kids all wrote letters to me and had it made into a book and the front cover has my name and it says, We love you because..... It is adorable and I laughed out loud at some of the letters.