Rest and Relaxation

Well it is almost time. Mexico is calling my name. I can hardly wait to get there. I am ready for some down time because even though I am off work I can never sit still at home. I am constantly cleaning or working on something.

I had my first workout yesterday after taking a week off. I am actually a little sore today too. It felt good to get back in the gym though. When I get back from vacation I plan on taking some yoga classes. I am really wanting to make that a part of my routine.

I did get the job that I put in for last week. It is in the same school district but a different Elementary school. It is not where I wanted to be but it is better than where I was at so I am really excited to start fresh with a male principle. There are mostly women where I worked before and we all know women are their worst enemies and wherever women are there is always going to be drama.

I do have some more pics but have not had time to get them all uploaded and on the computer but I will after vacation. Thanks for all your emails and comments. I hope to catch up on my blog reading when I get back.

Happy as can be!

I am finally starting to settle down a bit and relax. I am leaving for some Dallas shopping with my mom in the morning after a job interview. I am going to shop for 3-4 days and then will be leaving for Mexico in less than 2 weeks. I can hardly wait.

I am back to eating clean and when I say clean I am talking things like yogurt, Ezekiel bread, eggs, egg whites, oatmeal, grits, lots of summer organic fruits and veggies. I love summer time and the fresh fruit and stuff that come with it. I spend Sunday indulging in some not so good for you stuff and after waking up Monday feeling as if I had a huge hangover I realized I had to get back at it because that is just poison for my body. So no sugar for this gal, just good proteins, carbs and some fats like avocados and almonds, walnuts and stuff like that.


I wanted to share this great poem that a very special friend wrote for me. It means so much to me I ask if I could share and since he does not mind, I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. I am going to keep it forever!


You gave your all to be your best, Now you can celebrate.

Although your time was not that long
, Your moments but a few,
Your proved your heart and mind were strong,
It made a star of you.

A champion who earned the name,
Who seized upon the hour,
A light upon the hallowed stage,
A beauty fused with power.

You showed that you are so much more,
Than some had ever thought,
You went and sparkled on the floor,
To prove how hard you'd fought.

Fought to be the best you've been,
A Lady strong and true,
A role model that should be seen,
A talent fresh and new.

Now you're making changes,
To make a another start,
Your life now rearranges,
But is guided by your heart.

For all the times you proved yourself,
To be what you are now,
You proved you have fantastic wealth,
And a youth that knows no bounds.

Today I look back on your deeds
Reflecting on your past,
As you begin to sow new seeds
To grow things that will last.

I wish you well in all you do,
For your star will never fade,
I know that heart so strong and true,
Will shine in other ways.

You've shown the best of all you are,
You've shown what you can do,
I know that you can go so far.
As I've seen so much in you.

I wish I'd seen you at your best
I wish I'd seen you shine,
But I know you more than past the test
You're a Lady of your time.

For all that you strive to achieve
For all you wish to do,
Know that I will still believe,
And I'm always proud of you.

Secondly I'd like to say a BIG CONGRATULATIONS.


Now a few more pics from my show.

Took some names this weekend!

What a fabulous show this was. I am so glad I did it. The people were wonderful and I had more fun this year than last year at the same show. Maybe that is because I was a lot more ready this go around, coming in at 12 lbs lighter than last year. I am small and was smaller than all the other women. I weighed at my daughter's on Sat and it was 108 which is what the doc weighed me a week ago. Anyway, it was absolute wonderful and I really felt like I went out with a bang.I have to say I am gonna to miss it more than anything but I need to tackle some other goals I have. I will post pics as soon as things settle down a bit and I can get them all downloaded.

I took 1st place Novice, 2nd place Master's and the Oklahoma Natural Bodybuilding Title and the good news is, there were 3 other bodybuilders who were over the age of 40! That never happens. I found some new friends for life though.

4 days of dry ass tuna to go!

I can handle about anything but I am really tired of trying to get tuna to go down without choking half to death. I am just gagging it down. Not much longer though and then I think it will be sometime before I am able to eat it again, same goes for fish! BLAH! Anyway, I had to send pics to Mike today so I thought I would post a few. It will be interesting to compare my pics from this same show last year to this year. I am weighing in at around 11 lbs less. I thought I was thin then so you can imagine how I feel right now. I am sure that is why my immune system is having trouble fighting off this nasty infection I have. I sure wish I had not had to miss any workouts this past week because I think it would have seen more improvements but I was just too sick. Please keep in mind, I am white! and I still have nasty spray tan on my body from Colorado. I look like I have a disease and will be so glad when all the spray tan is gone for good and I can get a real tan in my own pool. This pic was after drinking over 2 gallons of water too. Gotta love dry out week.

5 days till showtime

Well I guess with all the hustle and bustle of the Colorado show my body got a little run down. It took about two day for it to hit me but I have been terribly sick. I have never had a sinus infection so bad. I could not even chew egg whites this morning my teeth hurt so much. I am a crank ass and all I want to do is relax and have fun with my friends. If I ever say I want to do another show back to back I hope someone will slap some sense into me. I think it would have been fine had I not gotten sick but I am sick of the food and I am gagging just trying to get tuna and asparagus down. When you have a sinus infection everything taste like crap anyway much less asparagus and tuna. It pretty much taste like that all the time. I went to the doctor 3 days ago and was put o antibiotics which I never take, I hate that crap but I was desperate knowing my show was next weekend so I decided I better do it plus I was in so much pain they could have given me anything and I probably would have taken it.

I am a big grouch! I have been dieting since Christmas and it is taking its toll on my social like and my family life. My family has sacrificed a lot too. All my friends are getting together Thursday for lunch and a movie but I will not be able to attend because I do not want to be around all the food. I am not worried about cheating because I won't but why put myself through that. I mean I am 5 days out and that restaurant is not closing anytime soon. The food will be there in a week. I am getting the "you have an eating disorder looks" from friends and I am tired of it. I am tired of the misconceptions of bodybuilding. Hell yes I have to lose a lot of weight to get rid of the fat on my ass, I am a women and that is just the way it is so I everyone just needs to get over it and stop feeling sorry for me. I am sick of it and I choose to do this but, it does not excuse the fact that I am sick to death of it. Everyone makes a huge big deal when someone in our building runs a marathon but everyone acts as if I am some kind of freak for my training. Really? I guess if I was training for a full marathon and lost 20 lbs it would be okay? Whatever! I am tired of the same foods. I love to cook and cannot wait to cook. I am going to cook all summer long. I never thought I would be anxious to put weight on but I truly do not like how thin I am, I look old in the face and my implants look funny. I weighed 108 at the doctors office so no wonder I cannot get well. I need to weigh at least 115-120 to feel and look healthy. I am going to get there too one calorie and a time.

I am not sure how the missed workouts are going to effect me as far as how I look on Saturday. I just know that this is the first time I have had to miss a workout in at least a year maybe longer so mentally it is tough on me. I will be doing the happy dance on Saturday night after all this is over and I can eat whatever the hell I want!

12 days out to Tulsa

Yes, back to back shows. I had a blast in Colorado! I cannot even tell you what a awesome team I have the pleasure of being a member of. I could never do what I do without these girls. I would have never felt like I was good enough. Some of these girls I have know for a few years but never met in person however when meeting them it seemed as though I had known them for years. I love them all and they have a special place in my heart forever.

I was the only one in my classes so Boo on that! I am starting to get used to it but I still had a blast. I just decide I was going to have fun and I did. I was laughing on stage because the Diva's were cheering so loud. I just got tickled. I was not nervous at all. I think I am finally comfortable on the stage now that I am thinking this one in 12 days will be my last. I know it will be for a very long time but I am sure I will get the itch again. I just love this sport.

I could not post without telling you I ate a 1/2 thin crust cheese pizza and a big piece of cheesecake. I did not order the cake but ended up eating bites of everyone who did so I am sure it added up to an entire piece. The drive home was long and I was not in the mood for tuna at all so I ate way too may almonds. I was back on track the very next day and now am 100%. I need to stay that way for the next 12 days so I can look halfway decent on stage. This show is the same show I did last year and it was fun so this is all fun for me now.

1 week out and feeling fantastic!

I am sorry I have not had time to blog at all! I have been so busy training and trying to get everything ready for next Saturday. I am so freaking excited and truly believe I will be leaner than I have ever been. My diet has been spot on except for one slip up and it was just a little almond mishap. I have not done all the cardio that my trainer wanted me to do. I have been focusing on my health and listening to my body. I am sorry I have not even had time to post anymore pics. It is getting down to the last week of school and I am super busy there too. I barely have time to fit everything in.

I will post pics and results of my show next Saturday. I am ready to have something other than fish and asparagus. That and tuna is about all I have had since Christmas. I smaller than I have ever been. I weighed 114.4 this morning and with dry out it looks like I will be around 109 so I don't have to tell you that I have no clothes at all to wear. I am in a loose size 4 jeans. My face is looking old and my abs are popping big time. I do need to put some weight back on but not before my show in Tulsa, it will be 2 weeks after this one and then I am probably gonna hang it up for a few years. I have some other things to mark off my bucket list. Don't think that does not mean I will not be a fitness freak because I will always be one. It is just me.

Thank you to all who left comments from my last post. I miss reading all your blogs and I promise I am gonna catch up some day!